Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

I keep trying to get leech parties for my subs. Tried to get one on my 34SAM last night, guy wanted to charge me 300k to go to 90. I told him I didn't want to go to 90, just to 49. He ignored me after that.

I think the worst part is when people know someone has problems, and that person reaches out for help and no one pays attention. I don't think this girl reached out. I think she just took a handful of pills to make the pain stop.

Where ya going?

Cali

Nice. I need a vacation. Damn bills that need paid.

Yeah some guy I tried and failed to get atma with made one and we got a whole bunch of lvls.

Yeah or they pay attention for awhile and give up. Pretty much everyone reaches out to someone at some point. They often don't just say it or might seem to be joking but you should take it seriously. But alot of people don't. Or are too in their own problems to care to help or just even be there. Alot of the times that's all a person needs is to know some is there who wants to talk to them.

Lol not a vacation. Moving. Cause I need monies till I get good job. And Kinda just need time away from online people who have been rather dissapointing to say the least. Always ditching right when you need them often without word

On a happier note it will be nice to be back home. Other than a few weeks here and there haven't really spent much time there in the last 8 or so years. Should be getting rather nice. Much better than freezing up here lol.

Time for some more Law of Ueki. Wonder if I will be woken up to more random drama again this morning.

Nope. But I'm currently reverting back to my old self so that should help in a round about way.

the power of the mind is amazing. all it takes is a little self control, terminate your problem with extreme prejudice.





ok back to work!

Its Friday!

/insert song here..

Agreed. TGIF!'

Random thoughts: Its to early for my dad to say *I let you sleep in* ...Thank you for coffee :3, Is it really a surprise party for my Dad if he knows that we are having one tonight for him? Kinda awesome to wake up to like 20 deer in the yard :D

its Friday, and its fine.

YUS! My brother's supposed to be coming today, I haven't seen him in like 2 years now.. He's also supposed to be bringing an Oz over too..

What a good guy

Seems to be feast or famine at work all the time. Right now it's the feast portion for me.

/panic

Whenever myself or a friend has that much, it invariably turns into brownies.

Too much of a pain in the *** for me, if I cook it, I just make firecrackers. I love the taste of them, but some say they taste like ***. Have to use organic peanut butter, the more natural fat/oil, the better, since THC isn't water soluble, it needs fat/oil/alcohol to capture it.

We will most likely be making honey oil though.. We always end up doing it.

Totally going to try these. I've heard of them, but never realized they were so easy to make o.O

I heard firecrackers taste really bad, but get you on a serious high.

Just make sure that the bud is completely sealed in by the Peanut Butter on both sides, it also helps to wrap them individually and tightly in foil, to keep the PB in while they cook. Don't open them until they're entirely cooled off, don't want any of that precious bud laced PB finding it's way out.

@Flion, yeah people are always saying that they taste bad, I'd eat them just as snacks if I could, even if it didn't get me high. I really love them, but then again, I also like the taste of bud period. I'd use it as a kitchen spice if it wasn't so expensive <.<

Green Dragon is also another favorite non-smoked method of mine. Use it in Caribou Lou, the ***is awesome.

I'm amazed by how big some peoples' hearts can be. Our local radio station is dedicating a music set to our friend who died yesterday. If you can, go to 99.7 the Blitz at 1:20pm EST.

I'm thinking... Friday's mean nothing to those without a job or who work weekends... I'm also thinking I really need to get this stuff turned into my career services department at my school today.

Sure it does. New movies come out!!! Woot

^^^^ this!!!..could not have said it better.

I am Tired of seeing ppl say the ones who suicided took the easy way out. The journey to that state of mind is hellish and unforgiving and it doesn't happen over night. It takes months or years to get That depressed and to feel that hopeless. And once you are at a place of no return it is a miracle If you make it out. People who have never experienced prolonged depression (months to years not just weeks) don't understand how badly screwed up your mind gets because the brain chemistry gets so terribly out of balance.

I'm heartbroken. So are a lot of people. I've been talking to a lot of people who have been in that place, and maybe I've been too rough on people who've chosen this option. It's up to us, the friends and family who can see the signs of depression, to intervene and prevent this from happening. It's not always a choice, I know that now.

Just don't hate them for doing it, it's a hard choice to make, it's actually harder to make the choice to end it, rather than just keep going. I mean it's not like they wake up one day and say "I just don't want this anymore" this thought process goes on for months, thinking about doing it, trying to decide if they should, desperately clinging to hope things will just go away, and at some point, it's just too much and decide they just can't deal with it anymore.

I understand the reasoning on why people call it a selfish action, and maybe in some sense it is, but you can also say expecting someone who has no hope of a better life, and is constantly living in despair to stick around, just because losing them will make you (in general, not saying you specifically) hurt, is also selfish. It's sort of the same thing as keeping people on life support against their will just because you can't deal with losing them. I know I don't want to live in a hospital bed with tubes shoved in every orifice. I also don't really care for a funeral or being buried, I want my body donated to science (no way I can donate organs, I drink too much and have done way too many drugs, not to mention smoking a pack a day for the past 13 years or so) but at least my body could do some good, if only as an instructional tool, it won't do anyone any good sitting in the ground.

Just hang in there, I know it's cliche', but it does get better. It may take a few years before you can stop crying over certain memories tied to the person.. Like for me it was Behind Blue Eyes (Limp Bizkit version, because it was played over and over at his funeral) everytime I'd hear the song I'd just start crying. Now though, I can listen to the song, talk about good times, nothing that reminds me of him makes me cry.

Its a surprise to the people that still thinks its a surprise!

Sure it does.... it means more of their friends will be able to do things with them or whatever...