So there's this guy I like, but I've always been too afraid to tell him because he's... kind of far outside my reach. Pitifully enough, I've spent the past year working my *** off in order to improve myself - I've made some pretty big changes to my appearance and am wrestling for control over my fears/doubts - all so I could finally find the courage to take the risk and tell him.
I've (sorta) known him for awhile now; used to live down the hall. Buuuut during the majority of that time, I was still closeted, I was really awkward, and I tended to keep to myself a lot. XD So I feel like I left this really unattractive impression that I can't get rid of despite finally coming out last year.
Fast forwarding to this semester, he's studying abroad and the only contact I have is through his facebook, which I avoid like crazy because I never know what to say anyway. ._. Lately though, I had been noticing some guy from another university in his pics and posting on his wall. <_< They're both doing the same study abroad program apparently. Now the two of them are planning some trip together and it looks a lot like I've missed my chance (not that I ever had one, but whatevs lol). ; ;
; ; *needs a hug* Sorry to complain and be all needy, the person I would normally turn to with this is like... super-best-friends with the guy, so I can't really talk to her about it. XD /saaaaaad
So there's this guy I like, but I've always been too afraid to tell him because he's... kind of far outside my reach. Pitifully enough, I've spent the past year working my *** off in order to improve myself - I've made some pretty big changes to my appearance and am wrestling for control over my fears/doubts - all so I could finally find the courage to take the risk and tell him.
I've (sorta) known him for awhile now; used to live down the hall. Buuuut during the majority of that time, I was still closeted, I was really awkward, and I tended to keep to myself a lot. XD So I feel like I left this really unattractive impression that I can't get rid of despite finally coming out last year.
Fast forwarding to this semester, he's studying abroad and the only contact I have is through his facebook, which I avoid like crazy because I never know what to say anyway. ._. Lately though, I had been noticing some guy from another university in his pics and posting on his wall. <_< They're both doing the same study abroad program apparently. Now the two of them are planning some trip together and it looks a lot like I've missed my chance (not that I ever had one, but whatevs lol). ; ;
; ; *needs a hug* Sorry to complain and be all needy, the person I would normally turn to with this is like... super-best-friends with the guy, so I can't really talk to her about it. XD /saaaaaad
Also, Happy Halloween weekend.^^;
/hug! Don't be too bummed about it, it happens, and you're bound to bump into other awesome guys D:
I know how you feel about not feeling confident enough and wanting to improve yourself before you approach someone, but you miss some good opportunities in the process. Anybody who's worth your time will accept you for who you are, flaws and all. Hopefully you've learned from this, and the next guy you fall for you won't hesitate to snatch right up :D
i went to a heavy metal concert today. I moshed. fell and my foot bent all the way to one side for a second. it was extremely painful. so i started moshing on one leg. now it's all squishy, is that bad?
Thanks everyone.^^;;; And sorry again for being such a downer.
I've known all along that it would likely turn out this way. I told myself that at least I'd be ready for the next one. It's just that for so long now, my single motivating thought has been "get yourself ready to tell him, get yourself ready to tell him" and I kind of feel like I've lost the direction I had.
I also feel like I'm dealing with emotional stuff that most people get over while they're in grade school. :/ Guess that's what I get for ignoring my feelings all that time. XD
I think the worst part is that I can't be totally sure what the situation really is - all I have are assumptions taken from bits and pieces of info via the intarwebz. Like, I could be totally wrong about it all. And until I know for sure, this whole messy business is gonna get draaaawn out. Closure {Can I have it?} XD
On the bright side, I went to a haunted house thingy with some friends just now. It was nice to have a distraction for awhile. :) And sorry to hear about your foot, Anuu. D: Maybe you should get someone to look at it lol ?
Great Star Sybil have mercy on my taru soul... 70 more Arcana kills to go ; ; I keep pausing to watch my favorite movie Noah's Arc: Jumping the Broom! This is gonna be a long night!
So there's this guy I like, but I've always been too afraid to tell him because he's... kind of far outside my reach. Pitifully enough, I've spent the past year working my *** off in order to improve myself - I've made some pretty big changes to my appearance and am wrestling for control over my fears/doubts - all so I could finally find the courage to take the risk and tell him.
I've (sorta) known him for awhile now; used to live down the hall. Buuuut during the majority of that time, I was still closeted, I was really awkward, and I tended to keep to myself a lot. XD So I feel like I left this really unattractive impression that I can't get rid of despite finally coming out last year.
Fast forwarding to this semester, he's studying abroad and the only contact I have is through his facebook, which I avoid like crazy because I never know what to say anyway. ._. Lately though, I had been noticing some guy from another university in his pics and posting on his wall. <_< They're both doing the same study abroad program apparently. Now the two of them are planning some trip together and it looks a lot like I've missed my chance (not that I ever had one, but whatevs lol). ; ;
; ; *needs a hug* Sorry to complain and be all needy, the person I would normally turn to with this is like... super-best-friends with the guy, so I can't really talk to her about it. XD /saaaaaad
Also, Happy Halloween weekend.^^;
i know exactly how you feel man D: i've been in many similar situations. the most similar being this time i really liked this guy, but only knew him over ffxi. talked to him one day and he was talking about how he was mad that SE wasn't doing much about RMTs, and he was gunna try WoW. i took a week break from the game, came back and haven't seen or heard from him since :\
also my step dad's been through a few years of med school. says i probably just sprained it. i can walk now just can't bend my foot or i'll die.
Asura.Selennia said:
Congratulations Kazen!
And oh Scrumpypoo, I have something for you:
So how does that divorce offer sound now?
LMFAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Asura.Xenophire said:
Cerberus.Kazenkujin said:
YES!! Trial #848 is DONE!! OH and Scrumpet... I whip my hair back forth... I whip my hair back and forth!!
On an unrelated note; Someone finish this stupid Teiwaz trial for me. Its the light-based kill on beasts, killing blow being 50+ dmg. Soooo tedious. ; ;
On an unrelated note; Someone finish this stupid Teiwaz trial for me. Its the light-based kill on beasts, killing blow being 50+ dmg. Soooo tedious. ; ;
That was kinda fun. I let a friend beat them down to like, 3% and I Banish III killed or Holy killed. xD Flip a table when it only did 2%, then like... do it again. xD I need to upgrade to the +1 here, soon.
i not to happy se been playing games with me 3 months i still cant get my account back someone stoled my account ,you tell why would they leave askars on gilmesh and put jacensolo on another server in sylph
when i had jacen solo he 75 thf full relic thf gear ,by the time i do get back pretty much everything i had on 7 accounts was sold . reason i know i did search on chacters since i cant get the account back .
its making me want just ban the account then noone will gain ,the person got the account also got connections in se because i tryed everything to freeze my other account instead they frooze another account i reopned after 5 years ,i gave up reopneing it . if they not gonna help ,then i guess i should destroy the account somehow i wish who ever got would stayed on diablios alot my friends would stoped by now ,i know people on sylph but lol i cant access my friends list. and other account i had was from ps2 release one with jacensolo and askars,anakinskywalker,alderino,jainasolo,karatekid askars a 75 smn full relic gear he my main account ,i watched in horror all his hq staffs was sold . i almost given up hope.
Just curious to see how many of us actually play FFXI. **Now, let's try to keep this clean, please don't respond if you have nothing nice to say.** :] Don't be shy, speak up! :D
EDIT: You don't have to be gay to post in here, if you want to be apart of our conversations.. feel free to join in! Don't be shy, we don't bite.. well some of us do! :] Anyyyyyways~! This thread has become a home to many from the LGBT community & even some from the straight community who are open minded and enjoy chit-chatting with us, :] so let's keep it drama free, we deserve a place where we can be ourselves without being made fun of/harassed.