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seriously though, congratulations, you guys make em' pretty cute.

/gathers up a big pile of work papers from his desk "in box"
/puts them in the electric jogger to get them all neat
/football spikes them into the garbage can

alright... /swirls almost empty coffee cup @ PARKER

let's get right down to the brass tacks.
I've got some good news and I've got some bad news.
and the only way to get either is to get them both. alright?

you take the good you take the bad... <insert "Facts of Life Theme Song Here>

What you have to do is teach yourself to enjoy the bad things that happen... Because they yingyangingly allow you to experience the good things that happen. are you following me?

Take ramy for instance bitching about how cold it is right now
But that's only because he can compare it to sunday which was super awesome. Whether or not he was able to appreciate sunday at the time however is a different story.... we'll get to that.

I love the cold. I enjoy it. I went outside last night and smoked a big fat cigar and froze my *** *** off in it to prove to myself I could still take it... /thumps himself on the chest

You can't truly appreciate a beautiful perfect sunshine day on a beach if you haven't frozen your *** off... Look at the Jamaicans, all they do is *** and try to escape reality and they live in a *** tropical paradise.

But they can't see the forest for the trees, or the beach for the sand in their case... because they are constantly immersed in it.

You gotta embrace the extremes.... Otherwise you might as well load up Thorazine and stare at a white padded wall.

There is no steady level of bliss if life gets steady it's boring you right out of your *** mind monotonous. It's a steady level of sucking hobo *** for spare hange.

/bashes his fist on his desk

You gotta be mean sometimes. You gotta get mad. and yes, sometimes you gotta get evil.

someone is going to stab you in the back.... it's going to happen... and you can whine about it or you can turn around and take it in the chest and laugh in their face and ask them if that's the best they can do and then squeeze their head until it turns purple... maybe pop one of their eyeballs out of it's socket so they can experience what that feel like...

you can't have it both ways unless you appreciate it both ways.

You can't be chivalric without someone else calling it chauvinism
You can't be steadfast without someone else calling it stubbornness or pig headed or bigoted or racist or whatever. Someone is going to see you as evil. No matter what. Thems the breaks kid.

So *** what? Let them! Relish it! Bathe in their hatred of you.. If what I am, if what I have become, is evil than so be it. I am evil.

I'm the evil that has to happen so good can exist....there.

I took the best shots the world could give me and laughed. I forged a man out of myself with my will. Right or wrong this is what I came up with, this is who I am.

I told my sons, even if I am the only man like me, the last man to walk this path. I'm going to do it. I don't care what other people think or do about it, It doesn't matter, I'm already dead they just haven't gotten around to burying me yet....

If you want to LIVE and I mean truly LIVE then you have to die.
Don't turn your back on it. Spin around and face it. Love it. Kiss death right in the mouth and ask for more. Is that the best you can do!? and it isn't all fire hell and damnation and evil.....

Last sunday one of the new babies in the family started getting fussy and everyone else starts looking to pass her of to her mom

so I picked her up and smiled. I enjoy fussy crying babies it makes me laugh because I know that at the end of the tears is a smile and a giggle and all you gotta do is wait for it... and keep talking to them and rocking them and bouncing them and then there it is.
and it's a magic. but you can't really appreciate a baby's smile if you turn your back on her tears... you have to appreciate both. Or it might as well be one of those creepy looking dolls..