Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

so then I leveled whm and that didn't help any... so I solo'd and got owned by every other bunny on the continent... struggling to get my three keys for the kazam airship pass...ending up being to high a level to party there after finally obtaining them...

I didn't know what a wiki was... I relied on the help of strangers that would finally have pity on me after watching me die 47 million times trying to solo sub job items or some other idiot thing.

People were understandably reluctant to help... years later when I was finally able to pull my head out of my own *** enough to help other people I would spend three weeks helping someone and then they would quit. And then the ls leader would recruit another manthra, find out he was male, loose interest in spending time with them. turn them over to me to help. I would help them for three weeks and they would quit. And then the ls leader would recruit another manthra, find out he was male, loose interest in spending time with them. turn them over to me to help. I would help them for three weeks and they would quit.And then the ls leader would recruit another manthra, find out he was male, loose interest in spending time with them. turn them over to me to help. I would help them for three weeks and they would quit.

Well, you get the idea. This went on until I got suckered into a shell that farmed dyna currency for the ls leader who was probably living off selling the gil for cash... when they changed dyna his mind snapped like a dry twig.... I see him around sometimes still, mumbling about being betrayed..

So now my wife and I run our own shell. We help people, we all worked together to get them to af3 +2 and an empy and then they quit, more people come, we help them, they quit.... they come, they go, they come back and beg to get caught up, they leave again, and I think it's come to the point where my wife has lost hope.... she doesn't even want to play anymore.

I understand, it feels like we have been doing the same thing over and over since aby came out. It's a never ending cycle. The few people we help get to that level that stick around, jump to other shells to do bigger and better things, they don't want to help with building a shell, they want to get more stuff for themselves. I get that. They can go farm alexandrite for their new ls leader, that's fine....

I also understand that people miss this game, I have been playing like a junkie for as long as I can remember. I know they think it's no big deal to get a little help to get back in the swing of things.
But I think I am done. I haven't bought SoA and I don't think we are going to.

I think I am looking for a fitting end. One last gloriious battle for Altana... and the Kingdom... and then find someone to pass the torch to...

with all the tweaks and adjustments and add ons and the balance at the end of the day it's still just a grind as I guess it always must be, to keep people playing. But I have been ground down enough, back to the nub I started out as. I think it's time to get back on rdm/war and kill that orc that waits for noobs outside the west ron gate one last time....

what this game really needs is a suicide booth, you go in to this epic final battle and when you finally win the cut scene is like a half hour long and you save the world with your last breath and Altana takes you in her arms and your character is deleted and they roll the credits...

so if you could talk SE into creating that for me I would appreciate it. I am ready to go in. I think I have done everything I set out to do. It's time.